Dream, 6-22-09

There was a good bit preceding this that is unclear, but seems like it involved traveling and perusing interesting things for sale at an outdoor fair.

The part that stands out to me is that we (whoever that is) are parked/paused/temporarily stationed in a moderately populated location. There is a convenience store at the top of a steep hill we are next to. There is something I want to get at the convenience store, and I go straight up this hill to get to the store. I am of one mind and purpose, and there is no room for thought of any hazard in going up this hill. Near the top, my feet slide some on a crumbly dry place in the hill (it looks like little balls of oily or rubbery charcoal) but I keep walking, one foot after another, even though I don't have enough purchase, my thought is steady and impassionate, just without question that I will get up this hill. It will happen. I will get there. No other outcome is thinkable. I'm slowed, but only just. I'm almost there, and I am going. My legs keep going after the ground. I am upright and durable, robot-ish, even. I get to the top and go toward the store, aiming for the goal: to get what I wanted.

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This dream, or this segment of the dream, shows me just how it feels and looks like to be totally focused on one outcome, with no consideration for if's or possible hazards or side effects or ANYTHING else at all. Just absolutely focused, like a laser beam. Seeing nothing but the goal, and moving toward it. Even when my shoes were slipping on something black (signifying something fearful or evil) and crumbly (something unreliable), I paid absolutely no attention, and did not fall, even though the hill was very nearly vertical -- I was actually partially held up by a sort of antigravity means -- I was lighter for several moments -- until I regained my footing and moved onward.

I remember, too, that my 'self' was a black woman with a scarf tied around my head, wearing a white t-shirt and pants. I had a look on my face similar what I have seen on a woman who comes into the library -- implacable, blank and purposeful.  Non-distractable.

That's really a valuable dream to me. I needed to know what it was like, what it could feel like, to do the impossible (or nearly so). That will help me to remember, when I need it. I am grateful to be given this dream. I believe it will help me accomplish some goals.  : )